i wonder if the struggle to survive was worth it...i wanted to be free...no more fear...
...then freakin 2 years of extreme poverty, struggling to feed my son...court...battered women's shelters, mental health services...no one helped...they couldn't because it was and always will be up to me...support services for battered women...why don't you get help...why did it take so many times to leave...
because i had absolutely no help or support...i should clarify that...i had support 'services' in place but they fell completely apart...
because the justice system is very unjust in awarding restraining orders
cops think it's fucking ok to answer their private cellphones when i'm shaking and sobbing uncontrollablly
because i was beaten to a pulp so many times throughout my life i really believed i deserved it
because i belived him when he said he was sorry
because i loved him
or is it because i'm a stupid fucking idiot...
2 comments:
That is truly sad. This world can be such a terrible place at times.
I know it might sound trite, but I do believe Jesus is the answer to the human condition.
Scott
New Zealand
Abuse is a horrible experience I think our government needs to make it harder on the offenders and we need as humans to stand up and say no more its no ok to beat someone down no matter what the situation is. I am sorry you went thru this but let me just say one thing dont be mad at the world for what was done to you then they do win give it back to the abuser so you can really be free again I am sorry for your pain.
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